Be Brave

I was just listening to the audiobook for The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe the other day. In the story, the four Pevensie children learn about bravery. I was also just reading a post by a dear friend who's started a new blog and realizing how brave that is.

Do you know how scary this is?

To take the words from my head and heart and put them out there. In the open. In the void. Where anyone can see them and read them.....anyone at all.

That's scary!

So why do we do it? Why does any kind of writer do it? Put their words out for consumption. Whether for public viewing or even just a significant other or close friend or family member.

It's bravery I tell you. The desire to share, even knowing it may not matter to anyone else but you. I have absolutely no idea whether anyone is even reading this teeny tiny little blog of mine. It's certainly not very exciting around here. But for some unexplainable reason, I felt the need to put the words here.

My words. My thoughts. My heart.

Even if no one else ever reads them, I needed to get them out.

So here am I. My little bitty brave of the day is hitting the publish button on blogger.

Small.

Seemingly insignificant.

But here I am anyway. You know why?

Because one small step...can be the beginning of a journey I've yet to realize. And whatever and wherever it takes me. I am so there.

You matter.

Your words matter.

Your heart matters.....just like mine.

So be brave! Whatever that looks like for you.....be brave.

And Yet...

As I sit here in my quiet, little corner....my mind is wandering so many different directions. About books........about blogging......about my friends......about my job......about life........about my life. As I anticipate the comfort of a chai tea forthwith, I wonder about my comfort levels. And why my life is heading this way, when maybe it should be heading that way.

Who can grasp any kind of understanding of transition?

Because........

Well........

Because that's what my life seems to be all about right now. Not saying that's a bad thing! Just contemplating the fact of it.

Transition - noun - movement, passage, or change from one position, state, stage, subject, concept, etc., to another; change.

Yup. That's me alright. Even though I'm not actually going anywhere. Even though I'm not planning anymore upheaval and craziness currently. Even though I'm sitting perfectly still (well, except for the jiggling leg), the space all around my heart just feels like transition.

What that consists of? I really don't know.

All I can tell you is that while life has settled since my Big Move (yes, it deserves caps!), it doesn't feel settled at the same time? Yeah. I know. That makes no sense. But see? It actually kinda does. In a strange, nonsensical, only in my brain and heart, kind of way.

The thing with transition though? As currently living in the state of, I mean. Is that with it comes...fear.

A fear that I'll fall one too many times. A fear that life could be....more. More something. I just don't know what. And here I am. Sitting. Going nowhere. Yet not settled either.

Fear is such a motivator for people. Definitely me! And should it be? Really truly?

In this time of transition, do I really want to let fear control my life? NO! I don't.

And yet.....

That's the kicker, isn't it? Fear shouldn't control, yet by it's very existence, it pushes us out of ourselves. It pushes us to do something. Now granted, that something isn't always a good thing. I am not here to say that fear is the best thing ever. (In fact, it mostly stinks!) Yet I have to acknowledge that it's been my fears that have motivated me to pray more, to call someone up, to even make a Big Move.

So.

Transition.

Fear.

Motivation.

Churning thoughts run through my brain in lickety split speeds. And making sense of it all? *shrugs* Only God can do that.

I can say without one question or doubt, that I am ever so grateful He does!

And yet....

This is why I titled this blog as such. Because this journey? This transitional time? I fight fears and insecurities and doubts, and yet "God's in His Heaven, all's right with the world".

HOPE.

Don't ever leave home without it. :)

A Beginning.......

Here am I.

A beginning.

The first step of a journey.

Where it will take me? I've no idea.

Still.....here I am.

Heart words....hard words.....thought words......fun words.......what am I doing words.......

Bring your tea, your coffee, (or other drink of choice.....or no drink at all!) and your hearts. Because mine is about to open up to share.....

Stick around for the moments?