a Curious Inbetween

There's a Curious Inbetween where I stand on a precipice
Behind is a mountaintop, bold and glorious
Below is a valley, desolate and gray
time spent both places has been filled with Hard and Wonder
yet both are transient
(for what is time really?)
So here am I, a whole world of curious
Unknown
Undecided
Unsurety
wanting so badly to stick out my foot and calmly move forward
Yet...
fear? doubt? a peculiar mix of emotion even I can't explain holds me bound
Love knocking, shouting
Friends encouraging, reaching
Secure and Safe are holds that must be broken
new words
new steps
new life
heart wildly beating
squeezed with paralyzing excitement and insecurity
This stationary bicycle life is deemed un-enough
no thought
no plan
just spindiddly words that gather
I fling out the hazy possibilities
in the Quiet
in the Waiting
(for no shouting fanfare happens here)
Pieces
Choices
Feelings
fall where they may
I am left with Hope
(sometimes the Curious Inbetween is precisely where He needs me)
HOPE, though small, glows bright
Ever Onward

4.11.16
kara

{I recently challenged myself to see beyond the poetry I've always loved and written. Here's one of my first efforts. Do let me know what you think? It took a bit of brave to share.}