Some days just breathing is about all I can do
It's all so fresh
I imagine getting over it
but I can't
How can I?
Words that I imagined saying before
but I could never have imagined these feelings
When they say there's a hollowness inside your chest?
When they say your throat becomes a lump of hard
& it's near impossible to swallow?
When they say the tears come at odd moments
& swallow you whole?
When they say bursts of emotion will happen
& then you're fine again?
When they say your memories come back
& make you laugh
& cry all at the same time?
When they say you want to talk about your mother all the time
& bring her up in every conversation?
When they say it takes TIME?
It's feelings unlike any I've ever felt before
& the millions of words I could try
to describe them wouldn't even begin to scratch the surface
or even make sense
unless you've been there
unless you've felt it too
unless you're still feeling it
Because losing your mother is only experienced
it cannot be described
it can only be felt
& adjusted to
there is no getting over
There's only straight through
one small step
Hope on, my heart
Life is waiting